I'm a guy and unhealthily obsessed with lesbians. I just need to tell someone about it and stop feeling like an alien

I feel like coming here is just an attempt to wrangle some unicorn that may/ or may not exist. Or maybe I'm just too jaded since the last physical/emotional relationship I had with a girl on the net was with someone I found out was married 2weeks into to flirting with each other and was just going through a stint with her husband over fight ... Layton by Parfums de Marly is a Amber Floral fragrance for women and men.Layton was launched in 2016. The nose behind this fragrance is Hamid Merati-Kashani. Top notes are Apple, Lavender, Mandarin Orange and Bergamot; middle notes are Geranium, Violet and Jasmine; base notes are Vanilla, Cardamom, Sandalwood, Pepper, Patchouli and Guaiac Wood.

2021.12.04 11:20 ellavewn I'm a guy and unhealthily obsessed with lesbians. I just need to tell someone about it and stop feeling like an alien

This is overall just going to be a long post about my experiences with lesbianism and how much it means to me as a guy This is all so embarrassing to say, especially the strong lesbian obsession phase I went through, but I just NEED to tell someone about it and not feel like an alien anymore.
As a kid, I've always been obsessed, and I mean OBSESSED with yuri mangas/animes. I used to binge watch those for hours on end, I probably watched every single Yuri content and knew every ship possible before even turning 14. Everytime I saw any slightly lesbian content I would SQUEAK on the top of my lungs. Mind youI just assumed every guy was this crazy about lesbians. At 13 I could not for the life of me sleep without imagining scenarios of two girls cuddling and hanging out or confessing their love to each other. I'm only now realizing how fucking weird this is. If I got really lucky I would dream about turning into a girl and my crush falling in love with me and dressing me up and wearing similar friendship bracelets. I used to LOVE night time because it meant escaping this reality I hated so fucking much and going back to daydreaming about pretty girls. Sometimes in the morning I would wake up at 10 but keep laying on the bed imagining these girl-love but each time a different scenario. I even had these two characters that I just constantly daydreamed about and even gave them names and got attached to them. I know this lesbian fetishization is so fucking weird but it's literally the only way I can enjoy love and the idea of love. Holy shit I wish I was a lesbian so bad I just wanna cry. I feel like a lesbian stuck in a boy's body and it hurts so fucking much
On the internet I would always go on Habbo Hotel as a girl and have girlfriends as a girl, Everytime I tried to be a guy it felt so deeply wrong.
Lesbian romance made me so deeply comfortable, it just felt right, I used to feel so fulfilled and get these weird feelings in my stomach whenever I saw two girls kissing, like literal butterflies, it just felt so pure and right, it just resonated with me so deeply and I couldn't understand why. I still don't know why
Then I grew up and I felt like I could never relate to straight relationships and hetero couples on media. Everytime I imagined myself in a straight relationship as a guy my skin fucking crawled. Which made me think I was gay, which made it even more confusing for me because I had no and I mean not the slightest attraction to men whatsoever, like I hate looking at my own dick so let alone another guy's. Turns out I'm a lesbian inside.
I've been in two relationships and every time it felt so deeply wrong, I knew it wasn't my girlfriends thought, they were wonderful, I knew the problem came from me. I was so unhappy with something about me and our relationship but I just couldn't pinpoint exactly what. But now I know it's because we're not two girls. I wish we were two girls.
But then came my homophobic and lesbophobic phase. You know how envy turns into deep jealousy and then extreme hatred? That's what happened to me. I saw lesbians and women in general having everything I have ever wished for, breasts, a vagina, feminine features, girl childhoods, sleepovers where you paint each other's nails and brush each other's hair, wearing skirts and looking absolutely cute in them, being able to love women as a woman.
I was so deeply jealous I started acting like the most sexist incel there ever was, going on the internet whining about how women have pretty privileged and have all the good things of life served on a golden tray. I constantly complained about lesbians and how they were only acting that way to attract male attention. So I guess hating on lesbians and women in general was my way of coping.
I used to literally be unable to fall alseep from crying while reading yuri webtoons. And I used to clench my teeth so bad whenever I saw a lesbian couple.
I still feel extremely ashamed about this incel jealousy phase, and I still kinda get this urge to cry whenever I see lesbian couples from jealousy.
I remember watching When Marnie Was There after a long work day and fucking bursting into tears. My favourite movie is now hell to watch because of my yearning and envy
I feel so hollow inside, it's like my entire life revolves around reading yuri hentai and mangas and imagining lesbian scenarios before falling asleep and DURING my sleep and when waking up.
Everytime a girl tells me she's a lesbian or bisexual I get even more attracted to her and it's weird
I literally can't be the one thing I want in life, which is to be a girl. And a lesbian.
Please don't go thinking I'm fetishizing lesbians, it hurts so much whenever someone tells me that. Because I don't go around harassing lesbians asking them to be with me because I know they wouldn't want a guy.
I didn't expect this to be this long but I really needed to get this whole story off my chest. Thank you if you've read this far.
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2021.12.04 11:20 truthfreedompeace To those who want to end naked short selling and want same day trade settlement,Overstock created TZERO to prevent naked short selling and enable same day trade settlement years ago and they finally were approved to clear their own trades .

Overstock created TZERO to prevent naked short selling and enable same day trade settlement and they are now approved to clear their own trades.They now trade security tokens and crypto and will soon trade traditional stocks as well.
These issues of naked short selling/counterfeit shares finally were brought to public attention due to GME & AMC trading halt fiasco, yet it was Overstock founder and former CEO Patrick Byrne who battled years ago against Wall Street corruption like this and now is speaking out publicly against election fraud and released book and documentary about the 2020 election.. Will post some links in reply below about these issues.
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2021.12.04 11:20 thisismythrowawayqu Women hitting men full force isn't the same as men hitting women full force.

I hate that I'm so much physically weaker than men that even if I dedicated my life to working out and learning to fight I would still probably lose against an average guy who did none of that.
Some brave women convinced men to give us rights, that's why we have them. If they as a collective decided to take them away there is litterally nothing we could do.
I am alive because my bf wants me alive. If he wanted me dead I would be dead before work today. Do you know how many women are killed by their romantic partner? At this point statistically coupling up is the most dangerous thing you can do as a woman, the most likely person to kill you is the person you decided to couple up with.
And yet despite the fact that if I were to punch a man with all my force it likely would not even hurt him physically (probably would hurt his feelings), and if he were to punch me with all of his force he could probably kill me, the popular beleif right now is that men hitting women = women hitting men.
I read a post the other day where a girl punched a guy and he admitted he barely felt it, and it did not cause him any pain. Then he punched back and knocked her out cold, she lost multiple teeth. People were on his side for the most part.
Noone should punch anyone. Abuse harms people way beyond just the physical damage and women are 100% capable of abusing men. Men with trauma from abusive women are valid. That being said, if you know that this girl who is likely smaller than you, far weaker than you, and doesn't have a weapon is not a physical threat to you and you use full force to defend yourself and caused serious harm to someone who litterally physically could not have done the same to you, then imo you did something wrong.
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2021.12.04 11:20 hiressnails Almost finished with Africa

pretty good season. I think that night at the movies awoke something in Frank. He just came into the jury wearing a skirt. It's always the way. The most conservative among us are always suppressing their true selves. I'm very happy that Frank has overcome though and started living out loud.
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